Tuesday, September 07, 2004

got this idea from liting.

this is what i wanna say, before i die, if i didn't manage to

if i were to die a freak death.. um.. say, today, i'll regret a whole bunch of things.

but, even if i was dying, and god gave me another week to live, i still would regret it. if i died a year ago, 2 years from now, tomorrow or whenever, my life would still be one with regrets.

i wish i didn't carelessly threw away my retainers.. i wish i followed agnes and stop going to rciy.. i wish i didn't lose control of emotions and make my parents disappointed with me... and i really wish i still had my retainers with me

why did i listen? if i didn't, i wouldn't know you, i wouldn't be so unhappy now, or so upset now.

for bf :: it's sad things have to be this way. and i'm sorry, that i said those hurting stuff

for sal :: thanx for everything..

for *him* :: you're so cute d=

[2nd chances]

if i could live my life over again - i would rather not.

if i have another pair of retainers - i would NEVER let anyone touch them, or let them go

if bf is all fine again - i would shut my trap. i will.

if i had you - impossible.

look at the mess i made of the life god granted me.

look at all the opportunities i could have grabbed to make my life a better one, but i ignored

and just look at what i always do to chances - screw them

if i'm gone coz i got kicked out of this world..

sal, do something about it kae?